Monday, October 18, 2010
Let There Always Be Never-Ending Light- Honoring Kauri
On this day two years ago, October 18, 2008, my friend and tattoo artist, Kauri Tiyme of Denver, Colorado, was taken from this earth. I posted my story of her here:
Today, in honor of Kauri's passing, I am wearing all black:
I also plan on having a lovely vegan meal for dinner tonight. Kauri was a strict vegan who loved Indian food (I am pescatarian and I adore Indian too). I think I am going to have a nice feast of lentils, chickpeas, and some aloo gobi with rice and naan. (Naan is a type of flat bread and aloo gobi is cauliflower and potatoes).
I cannot believe two years have past already. It's crazy. I still miss Kauri greatly. I am so blessed to have been her friend and client. I am lucky to have her art on my skin forever. I feel like Kauri lives on in each piece she put on me.
Part of me is still angry that Kauri is gone and yet this is a side of me that has found peace knowing that she is still alive in my memories. I think what continues to make me mad is that I have so many questions unanswered. I want to know why her killer (ex-husband) did what he did.
I know that despite any desire for resolution, nothing can bring Kauri back. She is gone and like I said, I have a feeling her energy is somehow still here with me and with those who knew and loved her. Kauri's untimely end should not overshadow the beauty that was her life. I want to celebrate Kauri's legacy today so I will.
There is a VNV Nation song called "Perpetual" that talks about life, death, and the unknown. It is amazing song and it is always the last song VNV Nation performs at their live shows. Lead singer and co-founder Ronan Harris once stated in an interview that if he had anything to say when he died, he stated that the lyrics of "Perpetual" would say it all for him.
I know that Kauri is the never-ending light now. Her spirit is shining. May Kauri live and thrive in my heart forever!
Lyrics for "Perpetual:"
'Find it in you, raise your eyes
Look beyond the place you stand
Towards the furthest reaches
And to the smallest of things
The sound you are hearing
Is the symphony of what we are
Revelation will not come
With heart and mind closed and divided
No need of sun to light the way
Across the ages, we have reigned as we endured
Through the storm fronts we will ever surely pass
To stand as never ending light
Throw away the mantle
Awake from your uncertain hesitation
No way to describe or equate the feeling
No end to what is at your command
A million thoughts run through you
Concentric circles, ever greater
But you have always known
That this is not all there is
To your questions there'll be answers
Let there be, let there always be
Never ending light."